I miss everyone

First post of the blog must be an emo one because why else would i start a blog but to complain about my life to someone (something) who will listen to me and not laugh?? All my friends feel so far away :-(

I feel so lost right now.

Who am I/what is my purpose/who is God to me/what do I feel, even?
I've always been so sure of what I am but now I am not so. It seems like everything I thought I knew has been proven different and those damned shades of gray are always looming overhead. This feeling is not a feeling, it is mere emptiness, and I find myself seeking solace in places where I will not find it. I've forgotten how to get over this.
God give me strength.