I miss everyone

First post of the blog must be an emo one because why else would i start a blog but to complain about my life to someone (something) who will listen to me and not laugh?? All my friends feel so far away :-(

I feel so lost right now.

Who am I/what is my purpose/who is God to me/what do I feel, even?
I've always been so sure of what I am but now I am not so. It seems like everything I thought I knew has been proven different and those damned shades of gray are always looming overhead. This feeling is not a feeling, it is mere emptiness, and I find myself seeking solace in places where I will not find it. I've forgotten how to get over this.
God give me strength.

Only when the last tree has been cut down
And the last river has dried up
Will man realise that reciting red indian proverbs
Makes you sound like a fucking muppet.

- Banksy,
Banging Your Head Against a Brick Wall